My Duality

The two traits that I believe I possess would be Happy vs. Sad. Throughout my life I have had tragic and horrible experiences, one after the other. Yet there are times that I build up enough strenght to smile and laugh as if I was never confronted with such experiences. I am very grateful to be living. There is no day that I don’t wake up thanking god for another day I get to live. I do have to be honest that there are times where I do feel like the path im headed for will destory me and make me a very neautral person. I don’t want to leave this world knowing I didn’t live life to its fullest. I want to leave knowing that i made my mark and I did all that I could do. When im happy, Im myself. I smile, laugh and enjoy every second of life. I like to make others happy too. If it is in my ability to do something for another, consider it done. When it comes to having fun, im always front in ceter. After having so much fun at the end of the day, I refresh my mind with happy thoughts and reminice of good times. From having so many happy thoughts, sometimes there are bad, unhappy thoughts that intervine. That put me in a state un depression and lonliness. When I feel sad I isolate myself from the world. I make myself invisible. But, when I am able to be seen, I put on an act. I show everyone a smile and laugh a little. So I wonder ? Am I really always sad and just carrying on an act of happiness for others viewing pleasure or am I really happy but sad times get to me? I would like to think that im Happy and that everybody gets sad at times. I believe that you should always feel both ways. Well, you should feel Happy more than you should feel Sad but its good to feel Sad occasionally. When you feel sad you think negativley and remember bad times. When goodtimes come around, you’ll have even more fun than usual because you’ll have one of those .. “ Ive never felt this happy” moments, Because you usually felt so sad. I feel like my Happy trait is stronger because I feel more happy than I do sad. My sad days come and go quickly. I get over things. I could be very differnet if I didn’t have these traits or if I didn’t have one of them. Because this is a very common trait, everybody feels happy atleast once in their lives as well as they do sad. But you cant have one without the other. In order to feel happier than ever, you must have once felt sadness.

~ by Cristina Lopez on October 17, 2008.